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  Lobachevsky alone has looked on Beauty bare.

  She curves in here, she curves in here. She curves out there.

  Her parallel clefts come together to tease

  In un-callipygianous-wise;

  With fewer than one hundred eighty degrees

  Her glorious triangle lies.

  Her double-trumpet symmetry Riemann did not court-

  His tastes to simpler-curvedness, the buxom Teuton sort!

  An ellipse is fine for as far as it goes,

  But modesty, away!

  If I'm going to see Beauty without her clothes

  Give me hyperbolas any old day.

  The world is curves, I've heard it said,

  And straightway in it nothing lies.

  This then my wish, before I'm dead:

  To look through Lobachevsky's eyes.

  I felt very drowsy. I had been into and out of consciousness periodically and had no idea as to how much time had elapsed. My watch, of course, was of no assistance. I resisted going away again, however, both to prolong the aesthetic seizure and to keep abreast of developments about me.

  I was uncertain as to whether my rescuers were aware of my wakefulness, in that I was facing away from them, reclined and loosely restrained in a hammock-like affair of soft webbing. And even if they were aware, the fact that they were conversing in a non-terrestrial language doubtless provided them with a feeling of insulation. At some earlier time I had slowly realized that the thing that would most have surprised them probably surprised me even more. This was the discovery that, when I gave it a piece of my divided attention, I could understand what they were saying.

  A difficult phenomenon to describe better, but I'll try: If I listened intently to their words, they swam away from me, as elusive as individual fish in a school of thousands. If I simply regarded the waters, however, I could follow the changing outline, the drift, pick out the splashes and sparklings. Similarly, I could tell what they were saying. Why this should be I had no idea.

  And I had ceased to care after a time, for their dialogue was quite repetitious. It was considerably more rewarding to consider the curtate cycloid described by Mount Chimborazo if one were positioned somewhere above the South Pole, to see this portion of the surface as moving backward with respect to the orbital progression of the body.

  My thoughts suddenly troubled me. Where had that last one really come from? It felt beautiful, but was it mine? Had some valve given way in my unconscious, releasing a river of libido that cut big chunks of miscellanea from the banks it rushed between, to deposit them in shiny layers of silt up front here where I normally take my ease? Or could it be a telepathic phenomenon-me in a psychically defenseless position, two aliens the only other minds for thousands and thousands of miles about? Was one of them a logophile?

  But it did not seem that way. I was certain that my apprehension of the language, for example, was not a telepathic thing. Their speech kept coming into better and better focus-individual words and phrases now, not just abstractions of their sense. I knew that language somehow, the sounds' meanings. I was not simply reading their minds.

  What then?

  Feeling more than a little sacrilegious, I forced the sense of peace and pleasure transcendent out to arms' length, then shoved as hard as I could. Think, damn it! I ordered my cortex. You are on overtime. Double time for holidays of the spirit. Move!

  Turning and returning, back to the thirst, the chill, the aches, the morning ... Yes. Australia. There I was ...

  The wombat had convinced the kangaroo, whose name I later learned was Charv, that water would benefit me more at that moment than a peanut-butter sandwich. Charv acknowledged the wombat's superior wisdom in matters of human physiology and located a flask in his pouch. The wombat, whose name I then learned to be Ragma, yanked off his paws-or, rather, pawlike mittens-displaying tiny, six-digited hands, thumb opposing, and he administered the liquid in slow doses. While this was being done, I gathered that they were alien plainclothesmen passing as local fauna. The reason was not clear.

  "You are very fortunate-" Ragma told me.

  After I finished choking, "I begin to appreciate the term ‘alien viewpoint,'" I said, "I take it you are a member of a race of masochists."

  "Some beings thank another who saves their life," he replied. "And I was about to complete the statement, ‘You are very fortunate that we happened along this way.'"

  "I'll give you the first," I said. "Thanks. But coincidence is like a rubber band. Stretch it too far and it snaps. Forgive me if I suspect some design in our meeting as we did."

  "I am distressed that you focus suspicions upon us," he said, "when all that we have done is render assistance. Your cynicism index may be even higher than was indicated."

  "Indicated by whom?" I asked.

  "I am not permitted to say," he replied.

  He cut short a snappy rejoinder by pouring more water down my throat. Choking and considering, I modified it to "This is ridiculous!"

  "I agree," he said. "But now that we are here, everything should soon be in order."

  I rose, stretched hard, pulled some of the kinks out of my muscles, seated myself on a nearby rock to defeat a small dizziness.

  "All right," I said, reaching for a cigarette and finding all of them crushed. "How about your considering whatever you are permitted to say and then saying it?"

  Charv withdrew a package of cigarettes-my brand-from his pouch and passed it to me.

  "If you must," he said.

  I nodded, opened it, lit one.

  "Thank you," I said, returning them.

  "Keep the pack," he said. "I am a pipe smoker of sorts. You, by the way, are more in need of rest and nourishment than nicotine. I am monitoring your heartbeat, blood pressure and basal metabolism rate on a small device I have with me-"

  "Don't let it worry you, though," said Ragma, helping himself to a cigarette and producing a light from somewhere. "Charv is a hypochondriac. But I do think we ought to get back to our vessel before we talk. You are still not out of danger."

  "Vessel? What sort? Where is it?"

  "About a quarter of a mile from here," Charv offered, "and Ragma is correct. It will be safer if we depart this place immediately."

  "I'll have to take your word for it," I said. "But you were looking for me-me specifically-weren't you? You knew my name. You seem to know something about me ... "

  "Then you have answered your own question," Ragma replied. "We had reason to believe you were in danger and we were correct."

  "How? How did you know?"

  They glanced at each other.

  "Sorry," Ragma said. "That's another."

  "Another what?"

  "Thing we are not permitted to say."

  "Who does your permitting and forbidding?"

  "That's another."

  I sighed. "Okay. I guess I'm up to walking that far. If I'm not, you'll know in a hurry."

  "Very good," said Charv as I got to my feet.

  I felt steadier this time up, and it must have been apparent. He nodded, turned and began moving away with a very unkangaroolike gait. I followed, and Ragma remained at my side. He maintained a bipedal posture this time.

  The terrain was fairly level, so the going was not too bad. After a couple of minutes' movement, I was even able to work up some enthusiasm at the thought of the peanut-butter sandwich. Before I could comment on my improved condition, however, Ragma shouted something in Alienese.

  Charv responded and took off at an accelerated pace, almost tripping over the lower extremities of his disguise.

  Ragma turned to me. "He is going ahead to warm things up," he said, "for a quick liftoff. If you are capable of moving faster, please do so."

  I complied as best I could, and "Why the rush?" I inquired.

  "My hearing is quite sensitive," he said, "and I have just detected the fact that Zeemeister and Buckler are now airborne. This would seem to indicate that they are either looking for you or departing. It is
always best to plan for the worst."

  "I take it that they are my uninvited guests and that their names are something you are permitted to say. What do they represent?"

  "They are doodlehums."

  "Doodlehums?"

  "Antisocial individuals, intentional circumventors of statutes."

  "Oh, hoodlums. Yes, I guessed that much on my own. What can you tell me about them?"

  "Morton Zeemeister," he said, "indulges in many such activities. He is the heavy one with the pale fur. Normally, he remains away from the scene of his hoodling, employing agents to execute it for him. The other, Jamie Buckler, is one such. He has hoodled well for Zeemeister over the years and was recently promoted by him to guard his body."

  My own body was protesting the increased pace at that point, so I was not immediately certain whether the humming in my ears-was the product of a tidal bore in my river of red stuff or the sound of the sinister bird. Ragma removed all doubt.

  "They are coming this way," he said, "quite rapidly. Are you able to run?"

  "I'll try," I said, forcing myself.

  The ground dipped, rose again. Ahead, then, I was able to make out what I took to be their vessel: a squashed bell of dull metal, duller squares that might be ports spotted irregularly about its perimeter, an opened hatch ... My lungs were working like a concertina at a Polish wedding and I felt the first spray of the tide of darkness within my head. I was going to go under again, I knew.

  Then came that familiar flicker, as of having taken a step back from reality. I knew that my blood was pooling in my guts, leaving me high and dry, and I resented my subservience to the hydraulics involved. I heard gunshots above the growing roar, as on the soundtrack for a distant show, and even this was not sufficient to draw me back. When your own adrenalin lets you down, who is there left to trust?

  I wanted very badly to make it to that hatch and through it. It was not all that distant. I knew now that I would not. An absurd way to die. This near, and not understanding anything ...

  "I'm going!" I shouted toward the bounding form at my side, not knowing whether the words really came out that way.

  The sounds of gunfire continued, tiny as elfin popcorn. Fewer than forty feet remained, I was certain, as I judge local distances in terms of horseshoe-court lengths. Raising my arms to shield my face, I fell, not knowing whether I had been hit, scarcely able to care, forward, into a smooth blank that canceled the ground, the sound, the trouble, my flight.

  Thus, thus, so and thus: awakening as a thing of textures and shadings: advancing and retreating along a scale of soft/dark, smooth/shadow, slick/bright: all else displaced and translated to this: the colors, sounds and balances a function of these two.

  Advance to hard and very bright. Fall back to soft and black ...

  "Do you hear me, Fred?"-the twilight velvet.

  "Yes"-my glowing scales.

  "Better, better, better ... "

  "What/who?"

  "Closer, closer, that not a sound betray ... "

  "There?"

  "Better, that cease the subvocals ... "

  "I do not understand."

  "Later for that. But one thing, a thing to say: Article 7224, Section C. Say it."

  "Article 7224, Section C. Why?"

  "If they wish to take you away-and they will-say it. But not why. Remember."

  "Yes, but-"

  "Later for that ... "

  A thing of textures and shadings: bright, brighter, smooth, smoother. Hard. Clear.

  Lying there in my sling during Wakeful Period One:

  "How are you feeling now?" Ragma asked.

  "Tired, weak, still thirsty."

  "Understandable. Here, drink this."

  "Thanks. Tell me what happened. Was I hit?"

  "Yes, you were hit twice. Fairly superficial. We have repaired the damage. The healing should be complete in a matter of hours."

  "Hours? How many have passed since we departed?"

  "Three, approximately. I carried you aboard after you fell. We lifted off, leaving your assailants, the continent, the planet, behind. We are in orbit about your world now, but we will be departing it shortly."

  "You must be stronger than you look to have carried me."

  "Apparently so."

  "Where do you intend taking me from here?"

  "To another planet-a most congenial one. The name would mean nothing to you."

  "Why?"

  "Safety and necessity. You seem to be in a position to provide information that could be very helpful in an investigation with which we are connected. We wish to obtain that information, but there are others who would like to have it also! Because of them, you would be in danger on your own planet. So, for purposes of insuring your safety as well as furthering our inquiry, the simplest thing is to remove you."

  "Ask me. I'm not ungrateful for the rescue. What do you want to know? If it is the same thing Zeemeister and Buckler wanted, though. I'm afraid I can't be of much help."

  "We are operating under that assumption. We believe that the information we require of you exists at an unconscious level, however. The best means of extracting something of that sort is through the offices of a good telepathic analyst. There are many such in the place we will be visiting."

  "How long will we be there?"

  "You will remain there until we have completed our investigation."

  "And how long will that take?"

  He sighed and shook his head.

  "At this point it is impossible to say."

  I felt the soft blackness brush like the tail of a passing cat against me. Not yet! No ... I couldn't just let them haul me off that way for an indefinite leave of absence from everything I knew. It was in that moment that I appreciated the deathbed peeve-loose ends, all the little things that should be wrapped up before you go away: write that letter, settle up those accounts, finish the book on the night table ... If I dropped out at this point in the semester, it would screw me up academically, financially-and who would buy my explanation? No. I had to stop them from taking me away. But the smooth to soft shadings were on the rise once more. I had to be quick.

  "I'm sorry," I managed, "but that is impossible. I can't go with ... "

  "I am afraid that you must. It is absolutely necessary," he said.

  "No," I said, panicking, fighting against fading before I could settle this. "No-you can't."

  "I believe a similar concept exists in your own jurisprudence. You call it ‘protective custody.' "

  "What about Article 7224, Section C?" I blurted out, feeling my speech slip over into a slur as my eyes fell closed.

  "What did you say?"

  "You heard me," I remember muttering. "Seven ... two ... two ... four. Sec ... tion ... C ... That's why ... "

  And then, again, nothing.

  The cycles of awareness bore me back-to consciousness or within spitting distance of it-several times more before I stuck at something approaching full wakefulness and filled it with California-watching. It was by degrees that I became aware of the argument that filled the air, obtaining its content in a detached, academic sort of way. They were upset over something that I had said.

  Oh yes ...

  Article 7224, Section C. It had to do, I gathered, with the removal of intelligent creatures from their home planets without their consent. Part of a galactic treaty to which my rescuers' worlds were signatory, it was the closest thing to an interstellar constitution that they had. There was, however, sufficient ambiguity in the present situation to make for a debatable issue, in that there was also provision for removal without consent for a variety of overriding causes, such as quarantine for species protection, non-military reprisal for violations of certain other provisions, a kind of sensitive catchall for "interstellar security" and several more along these lines, all of which they discussed and rediscussed at great length. I had obviously touched on a delicate area, especially in light of the recency of their initial contact with Earth. Ragma kept insisting that if they chos
e one of the exceptions as controlling and removed me on that basis, their legal department would back them up. If it ever actually came to a point where an adjudication became necessary and they were reversed, he felt that he and Charv would not be held especially liable for their interpretation of the law, in that they were field operatives rather than trained legal personnel. Charv, meanwhile, maintained that it was obvious that none of the exceptions applied and that it would be even more obvious what they had done. Better, he decided, to let the telepathic analyst they employed implant the desire to cooperate within my mind. There were several, he was certain, who could be persuaded to solve their problem in that fashion. But this irritated Ragma. It would be a clear violation of my rights under another provision, as well as concealment of the evidence of their violation under this one. He would have no part of it. If they were going to move me, he wanted a defense other than concealment. So they reviewed the exceptions again, pondering each word, letting the words talk to each other, recalling past cases, sounding the while like Jesuits, Talmudists, dictionary editors or disciples of the New Criticism. We continued to orbit the Earth.

  It was not until much later that Charv interrupted things with a question that had been bothering me all along: "Where did he learn about Article 7224, anyway?"

  They repaired to the sling, interrupting my view of storm patterns off Cape Hatteras. Seeing that my eyes were open, they nodded and gestured in what I believe they intended as a pantomime of good will and concern.

  "Have you been resting well?" Charv inquired.

  "Quite."

  "Water?"

  "Please."

  I drank some, then: "Sandwich?" he asked.

  "Yes. Thanks."

  He produced one and I began eating.

  "We have been quite concerned over your well-being-and about doing the right thing in your case."